There are two beautiful spiders parked outside of my house. One has a nice, safe place on the cedar bush, I noticed her first. I'll name her Evilyn. The other, i'll call Anansi,unfortunately has situated herself above my front door. She's out of the way, except maybe to tall people, and even so it would sort of be hard to disturb her. But I could imagine the trauma that would be involved in the case a human does accidentally bump into her web. The web is chock full of insect treats and I do know the icky feeling of running into one of those.

Anansi is a beautiful, golden cream hued spider, about the size of a quarter. If it were a little more bright outside, I'd take a photograph. Maybe on the weekend, if she's still around, I'll think of putting her somewhere safe. Right now, I'm not going to bother. Spiders are harmless, and in certain mythologies, brings good luck to a household.

I just finished watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind and tried to not get too weepy about it. It made me think of all the bad moments in my life, or rather in anyone's life, and the things we do to try to purge the memories or at least try to pretend that those moments never happened. I've always known in myself that despite the hurts and the pains I go through, I've never wanted to change anything. I'd rather live with it than completely forget. We'd never grow up if we were allowed to stay in the same constant state of bliss. Happiness gives us growth, but so does sadness too.

It's interesting to think about how the human mind works, and how ephemeral every experience we have is. Yet because of the way our brains our wired, it stays with us for as long as those neurons choose to remain functional. Our entire past is recorded on organic matter, the medium being very fragile, the contents being completely intangible. Wire it wrong, and our perceptions could be fooled and reality is altered.

I've always wondered if people see shapes and colours differently. What I might perceive to be the colour red, to someone else's mind could be the colour blue. The only way I'd know is if I sat behind their eyes for a while.

I've been out of it a little. Hopefully after this weekend, I'll be able to get back on track. I still haven't figured out what to do about pixiecrap!, but I know for sure it's not going to go down completely. It's not like I have anything important to tell the world there, but you know how it is with a girl and her blog…

So this weekend will be dedicated to artwork and fixing my site. I'm in that mode, I think.

But I'll start right after I go on this run.

Well, that's interesting. I actually felt like being all webmistressy tonight, and one of the first things on the agenda was to fix the little errors on my site that only show up in Mozilla. I'm not exactly sure what I fucked up. All I know is that I don't like it. And it's probably something silly like me forgetting to upload the file in ASCII instead of Binary or vice versa or accidentally deleting a number.

I hate PHP sometimes. This is the reason why I will never be a backend coder.

Getting over that sickness has been tiring. I'm pretty sure I'm getting a lot better. I want to say that my energy levels lately have been low because of my health, but I'm guessing it's more on the lines of my emotional self. I'm thinking I need a social life. And playing with Sims dolls isn't exactly what I had in mind.

I'm hoping I could really get myself motivated this month to actually start doing things to my house that I had wanted to do for sometime. Thanks to recreating my house in the Sims, I've happily decided what the paint colours are going to be so sometime this month, I promise I will get to that.

Right now, I'm going to be all artsy and pretentious at Starbucks.

Taken when we were in Toronto a few weeks ago. It's the only picture I have of us together. :p