I took my bike out to Toronto for the first time ever. I don’t know why I hadn’t before… I guess there were too many excuses ranging from the weather being bad or me needing to carry a lot of stuff. This weekend, I went to visit the boy. I stuffed my bike under the Coach Canada bus and once we got to Toronto, I rode off on it instead of taking the subway.

I visited my old neighbourhood around the Carlton and Sherbourne area, and then rode through Cabbagetown where I also used to live. It was neat, but somehow, the experience wasn’t as novel as I thought it would be. Riding downtown didn’t feel dangerous at all. I wasn’t threatened by door prizes or speeding SUVs. The worse I got was some drizzle and the awful conditions of the road. Riding to my boyfriend’s apartment took about half an hour and it was a lot more fun than taking the subway.

I rode back to the bus terminal on Monday morning to catch my bus back in. Again, it didn’t seem like a big deal. Taking the subway in the morning as everyone’s piling on board for work has always been depressing. The immobility and the lack of air makes you sleepy. No one looks happy. Everyone is either tired, or simply looks depressed, and I don’t blame them. There is something to be said about personal transportation. In my case, I have a bike, which is more than ideal for me right now.

Honestly though, I think I wouldn’t mind at all if I never had to use the subway to commute ever again.

The following are impressions of the premier of Heroes Season 3. It contains many spoilers. All I will say here is that i’m disappointed that the story and the feel of the first season didn’t return to the show I anxiously and eagerly watched back to back. It was at least entertaining though. I had a headache as I watched it, so it may have contributed to my bitterness. So without further adieu…

SPOILERS AFTER THE CUT!

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Obviously because of everything that’s happened lately, I haven’t been in the mood to tend to my garden, and that included picking any tomatoes. However, it’s always been on my mind. I didn’t spend so much energy growing those tomatoes just to have them rot on the vine, or food for skunks and racoons. I had a bunch I gathered before the weekend that wouldn’t last much longer, so I made pasta sauce out of it. I had some of it for dinner tonight with sauteed portobello mushrooms and rotini pasta. I’m happy to say it turned out delicious. It’s the first time I actually cooked anything nice from scratch since I lost Niko, so maybe I’m on the mend, I don’t know. Food lately only served to keep me awake and alive so it hasn’t exactly been the most healthy. But I didn’t want to waste my tomatoes. I’d probably eventually feel miserable about that too.

They do everything bigger and better in the U.S.A. and I think a lot of Canadians know it too. And honestly, I think Harper had to have that in mind when the election is called. Everyone will be paying attention to what’s going on south (and a bit Northwest from us) and meanwhile Canadian politics will just do their thing and run their course and maybe, just maybe the status quo will at least remain. I don’t know, I’m possibly reaching there. I’m one of those guilty of paying a lot more attention to American politics than I normally should.

I have a lot of respect for Obama, and I have a lot of respect for McCain. I’m thinking Obama has the potential to be conniving and ruthless, but I also think he’s extremely smart and passionate about what he does. McCain, I think he’s a good person to be honest, but I don’t think he’s all that bright. And I know the election is run between these two people, but every single time i hear more and more about Palin, especially about her personal life and personal thrills such as aerial hunting (fucking coward, sorry did I say that out loud?), I dislike her more and more. I wish McCain could have picked any one else other than her to be his running mate because I have lost so much respect for his campaign. This is unfortunate, I did genuinely have hope that he would reform his party and bring it out of its dark and dank social conservatism past. Now, I’m not so sure.

I’ve been indulging in news and politics and pretty much anything that will keep my mind distracted lately. I’m still dealing with a lot of guilt and grief from the events of last weekend, and this morning I was told that I could pick up Niko’s ashes any time. This isn’t the first time I’ve had to go through a death in the family, but this is striking me as the most difficult because of what Niko meant to me. I’m still really sad about it, but I’m hoping I can learn to live with it all and just cope.

Did you know that Sarah Palin also hated cats? True story. As another Pamela in the news once said recently, “She can suck it.”

I’ve been debating adding this to my blog since I put it together a couple of days ago. But I do really want everyone to know what a wonderful kitty my Niko was and how much I will miss him.  It’s cheesy… all amateur pet tribute videos are… but you know what, it helped me a bit, and it gave me a bit of comfort. So now, I’m sharing that here.  Thank you for visiting.