I'm sorry I haven't been by…

Everything so far hasn't really been worth LJ-ing about. My life has become that boring. Aside from the exciting adventures of Jinzou and Thibar in World of Warcraft (where really, stories therein have become the high point of my days), things have seemed to mellow.

My sweet, beautiful grandmother passed away last Wednesday. I took Friday off to go to her funeral. She was 79 years old, and it's easy to accept that it was her time to go. But I still could never imagine seeing her like that at her wake. My aunts told me that when I was sick, she had come to the hospital and said something to the effect of “It should be me…”. If I were awake and heard that, I probably would have scolded her and told her not to say things like that. Still, sometimes I wonder about the cosmic balance of things.

I'm sad, and I'll miss her. The last time I saw her was on New Year's day and she seemed happy, and smiling. I know she was surrounded by people who loved her during her last days. I wish I could have seen her again though.

The hardest thing about this right now is people sending their sympathies, so please don't send any. :) Don't get me wrong, the thoughts are always very much appreciated, but I won't take them very well right now. My family didn't wail and lament and pound on the casket in anguish or anything like that. We just remembered her and what she meant to us and that's all I want to do.

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