This is the last full week of Inktober 2017. I’m not going to lie, I’m feeling tired. I feel like I’m in a creative rut, I’m also experiencing serious self esteem issues. I try new things, and when they don’t seem to work, I fall a little bit. It’s just the way it goes.
Admittedly, it’s all not that bad. My experiments with new tools or techniques or subject matters did help me to understand my weaknesses a little more, but I did feel like it was so much of a struggle and when I felt it failed, it did so spectacularly. I keep looking over my drawings and seeing glaring mistakes. I post them anyway, because I’m trying to be honest with myself and my audience about my progress. The small audience I have holds me accountable, even if it’s just in my head.
In this regard, Inktober has been a great success for me, not a failure. I tried, and I did it. I struggled, but I got there. And I have some nice drawings to show for it. For example, I’m super happy with how “The Horseman” turned out.
What have I learned this time around? I learned a little bit about how to manipulate a Pentel Art Brush Pen. I learned how relaxing drawing on paper actually is, and how I actually want to continue drawing on paper. After these last three drawings, I’m definitely going to take a bit of a break for a while before I start on my next project (Christmas cards!).